Vogue Williams has emotionally shared she felt like her body ‘failed’ her as she opened up about her heartbreaking miscarriages.
The presenter, 40, had two miscarriages before she fell pregnant with her fourth child, including one ‘awful and heartbreaking’ loss a year ago.
Vogue and her husband Spencer Matthews, 37, are already loving parents to sons Theodore, eight, Otto, four, and daughter Gigi, six.
Appearing on the Great Company podcast with Jamie Laing, she explained: ‘You just feel like your whole body has failed you and you’re on your own and you keep thinking, “Why me? Why me?”
Vogue said researching other women’s experiences with miscarriage helped her through her own experience.
‘I just realised it happens to so many’, she said. ‘The reason I spoke about it was because when it happened to me, I saw so many other women talk about it and I was like okay, it’s literally every second woman.’
Vogue continued: ‘I mean, I’ve had friends who have had extremely late miscarriages, and I look at that and think it must be the most difficult thing in the world.
‘So, you just kind of have to move forward.’
Vogue Williams, 40, has emotionally shared she feels like her body ‘failed’ her as she opened up about her heartbreaking miscarriages
Vogue and her husband Spencer Matthews, 37, are already loving parents to sons Theodore, eight, Otto, four, and daughter Gigi, six and are preparing to welcome their fourth child
Elsewhere in the interview, Vogue said she would rather ‘give birth 10 times’ than go through pregnancy if she had a choice.
‘I look forward to [giving birth] I have to say’, she said. ‘If I could skip the pregnancy bit, I’d give birth 10 times instead of having to do the pregnancy.
‘Everyone is so nice to you when you’re giving birth.’
Vogue previously shared that her first miscarriage, which happened at around four weeks, was ‘really upsetting,’ but she and Spencer went on to welcome their daughter Gigi in 2020.
She said they suffered further heartache last year when she went for a 12-week scan after falling pregnant, only to be told it ‘wasn’t really a pregnancy’ as the embryo hadn’t grown.
Vogue said she was ‘really embarrassed’ and ‘upset’ by the second loss, and she admitted she felt like ‘her body had failed her.’
Speaking about their baby news earlier this year, Spencer shared: ‘We’re so happy. We feel very… hard this time round to get to where we wanted.
‘Definitely more bumps in the road in order to actually get pregnant, but obviously we feel really fortunate anyway to have three kids, but this one’s been harder to get to that, well this bit, the announcing, but also just to actually get to where we wanted to be, has been rough.’
Vogue then opened up about her first miscarriage, sharing: ‘It happened to me before I had Gigi. It was so early on, like so so early on. We hadn’t had any scans. We hadn’t had anything like that.
‘I must have been maybe a month if even, and it was just one of those things and it was, it was awful, but it was everything happened quite quickly after it as well.
‘So, I never really kind of thought about it much. It was really upsetting at the time, but then I was pregnant quite quickly after, but it actually happened to me last year as well. And it was, just I was literally about to tell the kids.
‘You could kind of start telling I was three months and I just didn’t go for an early scan. I just never even thought about it because I kind of didn’t want to make a fuss – stupid now!’
‘I went to the 12 week scan on my own, I told quite a few people about it, like my parents, my brother, and my sister, and some people at work. And I just hadn’t told the kids.’
Vogue shared that when she visited the hospital for the 12-week scan, she immediately noted the concern from her doctor.
She explained: ‘And basically what had happened was, he had the pregnancy sac. I forget what the whole thing was called, but basically the embryo hadn’t grown, my body still thought it was pregnant.
‘And usually you just naturally get a miscarriage, but I didn’t. It just kept like it would have eventually happened, but it just didn’t at the time.
The presenter had two miscarriages before she fell pregnant with her fourth child, including one ‘awful and heartbreaking’ loss a year ago
‘I was three months along and [the doctor] was just like, ”I’m really sorry, it’s just, it’s not it’s not really a pregnancy and you’re going to have to get well, there’s a couple of options.”
‘So the very nice people at Chelsea and Westminster NHS, thank you so much. They were really amazing with it.
‘Obviously when I found out I was like ”I just don’t want to have to feel pregnant anymore” because it was awful feeling it and not being it, because I still had the symptoms.
‘I was just like, I just want to start again and just not have to deal with it.
‘We were really upset. I was really upset. Stupidly I felt embarrassed having to tell everybody, and it’s not an embarrassing thing but that was just an emotion I had.
‘I was really upset and then I felt like ”oh God I have to now tell everybody who I’ve told” and I just feel stupid, like my body has kind of failed me kind of thing.
‘And then I went in to the doctor and they said, ”Well, we could give you tablets,” but I was going to Spain at the end of the week and I was just like: ”I just don’t want to have to change all that for the kids and for myself and I don’t want to be stuck here on my own and I just want to be done.’
‘So they offered me a DNC as well, which you go in, you have an operation.
‘It’s really quick. I went in and I did that and it was really quick and then the whole thing was just like, I was so happy to be going away because at least then I didn’t have to be, I was kind of able to just be on my own in my own thoughts and be able to think about it.’
